A psychological factor for me it is. Every day I struggle for freedom, freedom for all paper works and studies that makes me so dejected. As to Israel at Egypt, for every time I hurdle those hardships, I ask for God’s mercy and blessings. I always pray and seek for God’s enlightenment and guidance that I’ll surpass all those stuffs with Him and with the power of Holy Spirit. And with that every day of scuffle, I can say that God never let me feel unaided for He is constantly at my side ever ready to uphold. To everyone, God is a question of concern.
There are people who are very religious and cherish Him, and then there are those who don’t believe in Him at all. There are always obstacles in life that makes one another question if there is a God out there. But to me, a devoted follower of Christ, I always feel His burning endless presence. Set for example, the give of life, that I am still breathing and enjoying the beauty of His creation. In addition to that are my parents, who for me are the resemblance of God’s love, their unending support and guidance for me throughout the years.
My rinds, who never leave me in times of neediness. With those stuffs, God continuously show His presence thus making Himself, His goodness, reveal unto me. Happiness, sorrow, victory, defeat, day-night are the two sides of the me coin. Similarly life is full of moments of Joy, pleasure, success and comfort punctuated by misery, defeat, failures and problems. There is no human being on Earth, strong, powerful, wise or rich, who has not experienced, struggle, suffering or failure. Enslave by those so called punctuations,’ for example had it.
I had a problem regarding the who I am will be in the near future. I was forcedly encouraged by my grandparents to take up B. S Pharmacy as my course. And I for a moment felt so enslaved with that situation, but as to Passover event, or the meaning itself, to defend’, I hardly defend my will. I asked for God’s help and indeed He helped me. My parents, without having informed my grandparents, enrolled me to my chosen course and it was B. S. Medical Technology. Thus, the other side of the me coin was tossed from misery to ecstasy by fending my will.
Of all the things we can experience in Christ Jesus, the feeling of abandonment is the worst. To have set our feet in His presence and felt the power of His love and one day feel that we are less than the masses who deny His existence is a horrible feeling. I shall say wilderness it is, when my dear mother encountered sickness that made us all dampen. It happened five years ago, when I asked God , why my mom ? There are many bad people out there and why my mother had to suffer?
She’s good, ND I don’t even remember anything she did wrong. She was under comatose for two months then. I was Just a little girl before who knows nothing in life and was so afraid of losing her. I kept on asking my dad, does God exist ? Then if He did , He should had helped us ,He should cure mom. Then, one of a sudden , everything turned into a miracle. My mom was healed, she recovered quickly unlike to that of doctor’s expected time of recovery. I for a moment, ashamed of God for I lose my trust unto Him Just for that obstacle.
I saw this as a blessing in disguise for starting that very moment of my life, I bestowed my whole-self unto God, not with such that I’ll be entering the nunnery, but living with and for God only. To sum up, life is beautiful Just as roses but it has challenges which are like thorns and have to be faced and overcome by all. Those, who accept these, challenges and succeed, are the ones, who know how to live life in its true sense. Thus, encounter life with God; be prepared to bear the pricks of pain for God will never desolate us.