Trust, big –word. Trust is a word that is hard to explain, either hard or easy to release. Trust is a belief with a sense of assurance to self or other people. Trust is primarily a positive emotion or a logical act. Trust becomes emotional when it comes to showing your vulnerability to someone you believe that will not betray you. Trust becomes logical when you assess a situation to risk something in order to gain or loss something for yourself. You do “trust” a person or perform an act of trust when you perceived a person that shows trustworthiness for you to show you vulnerability and giving faith to a person through openness.
Betrayal is an act of disloyalty to a certain person. No matter what relationship to a certain person is, once you perform an act of disloyalty or treachery, it is betrayal. Betrayal is one of the most hurtful phenomena a person could encounter to this world. A kid, a teenager, an adult, can encounter betrayal but in different stance. In order to be betrayed, a person must have special person to trust, to experience betrayal. Betrayal of the person whom you trust makes you feel that they person a massive violation to your life. Betrayal is the loss of trust to someone who gains your respect, faith, and worthiness.
There comes a time when back in my Junior High school days, Grade 10, a point in time that all of the clubs and section shirts and jersey planning came a concrete idea. The payment of club shirts, section shirt, and jersey was set to span of week to pay. I was part of the different clubs such as Young Counselors’ Club and God Loving Aspiring Dancers (GLAD), adding my section which is 10 – Saul. Before the week of payment, I ask my mom to give me money to pay for the t-shirts and jersey. In total, it can cost a thousand adding my daily allowances for the week. After the time that my mom gave the money to me, I already paid for the one shirt and jersey. There were days that my friends asked to join their get-together, and because they are my friends, I went with them to a nearby milk tea shop. I took a glance at my wallet thinking that I can spend the money the way I wanted to forgetting that I need to pay for other t-shirts. When the day ends and when I already got home, I checked my wallet and seeing that I’ve spent the money unwisely. For two days, I tried to save money to gain the money I’ve spent before but I failed. Getting into my senses and building my confidence, I asked my mom to add money because the amount she gave me wasn’t enough. But as soon as my realized, the money I was asking was too big that it turns out, she figured out that I used the money unwisely. Of course, a typical mother, she reprimanded me to what I have done. After that, she handed me the money that I needed and pay for the t-shirts was needed to be paid.
As the victim, I would feel disbelief to my daughter. It looks like my daughter wasn’t good in handling money. As a parent, for my daughter to face a consequence and a lesson for her, I will give money that still wasn’t enough to pay for the t-shirts. I will let her save money using her own daily allowance. Looking to my mom’s act, she looked giving but deep inside she may feel disbelief in me and disloyal to money spending.
