Doesn’t it appear to be simple? There has been only one thought for at least ten years, and it changes every few years or months. This concept, which has kept me awake all night, is nothing less than deciding our future.
This solitary doubt has been with me for a long time, causing me stress by thinking about it. I was foolish to believe that once I made my decision, all my worries would vanish. In reality, new fears have emerged, but the one that worries me the most is what if I fail?
Failure is the condition of not meeting a desirable or intended aim, and it’s generally viewed as the opposite of success. A succession can be a failure, but it depends on the context and may be relative to a particular belief system. One person might consider a failure what another person considers a success.
This problem has been bothering me for as long as I can remember. That has an emotional and mental impact on me. When I finally decided that I wanted to study medicine the first things I heard were “it’s very difficult, only intelligent people can become doctors,” “everyone who starts the career drops it”, “You’re not going to make it.” The comments may or may not be accurate, but they nevertheless managed to stress me out.
Since then, I’ve decided to approach this as a challenge and a goal that I’ll be proud to achieve if I succeed. Since the beginning of 2019, I’ve been investigating different colleges and what programs they offer. I began to make plans for the rest of my life. Instead of going out with my friends on weekends, I spent them investigating. I began researching several international exams that would be beneficial to me. But there was always that voice in my head telling me that I couldn’t do it, that it was too difficult, and that I should give up.
I began to wonder how a single decision or action could change everything I had worked for. When I first learned about the butterfly effect, I was fascinated by how things could take an unexpected turn. The butterfly effect is the concept that small causes, such as a butterfly flying in Brazil, can have massive consequences, such as a tornado breaking up in Texas. The concept is based on a scientific paper that was published about 50 years ago. As I began my research and discussions with friends and family, I noticed that everyone seemed to be familiar with the subject. I discovered that various films, television series, and books include the term “butterfly effect” in the title or are simply cited.
This made me wonder, how well can we predict the future? And I discovered that we can’t predict the future very well at all, at least when it comes to chaotic systems. The further into the future you try to predict, the harder it becomes, and past a certain point, the predictions are no better than guesses.
Taking everything into account, deciding on our future is difficult. We can consider every element of how we will meet our objectives and be proud of ourselves. But we can’t just go along with what others say. Humans must be open-minded and accept that not everything will go exactly as we expected. It’s alright to make errors, and we don’t have to let them define who we are as people. We have the ability to make mistakes and learn from them. One should not be terrified of failure, nor should we allow it to control us. We should accept and live the greatest life we are capable of.
