I am not a happy man, Ender. Humanity does not ask us to be happy. It merely asks us to be brilliant on its behalf. Survival first then happiness as we can manage it. This reinforces the statement that was made by Graff in the end of the previous chapter he says, “If one of us has to be destroyed, let’s make damn sure we’re the ones alive at the end. Our genes won’t let us decide any other way.
Nature can’t evolve a species that hasn’t a will to survive. Individuals may be bred to sacrifice themselves, but the race as a whole can never decide to cease to exist. ” The statement made by Mazer and Graff show that Ender is the one that has been bread to sacrifice themselves for the survival of the rest of humanity. This is not a sacrifice of ones life but instead it is the sacrifice of ones happiness because if Ender had chosen the path that led to happiness he would never have gone to battle school he would have stayed back on earth with Valentine.
Things were changed in his dreams. The little village that had grown up between the Giant’s ribs was composed of buggers now, and they saluted him gravely, like gladiators greeting Cesar before they died for his entertainment. This shows that Ender views himself as the bad guy and thinks that what he is doing is wrong. Although the buggers did attack the humans first he still thinks that it is wrong that it is his goal to wipe them out and they don’t even know what is going to happen to them.