September 1, 2011, I was still lying on my bed contemplating on how I can conquer my greatest challenge – my stage fright – when my mother called me for breakfast one Sunday morning. I barely noticed her call because I was so anxious as I have only three more days to practice my lines for our stage play presentation in school. I was trying to think of a way that I can do my role and deliver my lines with ease and confidence. Fear and anxiety still engulfed my person. My friends and classmates have already commented and given me advices on how to overcome this challenge, yet, I still find talking in front of people a nerve-wracking situation.
I still have no confidence to do our stage play. When I heard my mother call me again for meal time, I decided to go out of my bedroom. While we were having our breakfast, my mother noticed that something was bothering me. When she asked me about it, at first I was ashamed to tell my family the truth but my fear and anxiety of the forthcoming event in our school deceived me. I found myself relating to my family my agony every time I talked in front of people. I knew they were surprised but their love, concern, and desire to help me in my dilemma mirrored in their eyes.
I cannot bring myself to look at them because I felt terrible that at my stage I still have the said challenge. However, when my father started to share his experience of the same struggle I momentarily forgot my dilemma. My attention was glued to the person where fear and anxiety I cannot connect to his person. We knew him as a strong person, a man of so much confidence. We viewed him as a person who is always sure of the things that he says and does. He can really make things work according to how he planned them. He has an aura devoid of any fear, worry or anxiety.
Thus, when he started to give me insights on how he dealt with his fear and anxiety, I really listened intensely. Among the many things that he shared to us what struck me most was how he viewed fear and anxiety. According to my father, anxiety and fear are aspects of life. If we are alive we experience them. But these feelings are not just purely negative. We can capitalize on this to make positive things happen what causes fear and anxiety to be either negative or positive depends on how we use them, on how we allow them to affect our lives, and on how we perceive them. Fear and anxiety can be our friends. They can warn us against impending dangers, and help us protect ourselves physically emotionally, financially, and so on from being harmed. Fear and anxiety provide energy that can be used positively to preserve what we possess and to protect ourselves…
Sad Tragedy of My Life
I have always believed that I am destined for greater things. As a young child, I have always been involved with things and circumstances that could help mold me into a better individual. I was always inspired to discover new things that were beyond my knowledge, and my unstoppable quest for answers was beneficial. bI never thought that a tragedy that struck our family would forever change my view on life. My father and I had this inseparable bond that my relatives could ever break. We could easily read each other ‘s minds and can console the other in times of heartbreak. We were like each other ‘s twin, regardless of the age difference. Our bond was admired by many and intrigued by few. As I was getting older, my father was too. He was getting weaker as time passed by. One of the problems we did not anticipate was the fact that we did not prepare ourselves for the possible separation that we would experience, which was death.
Then, I found out through my neighbor who informed me that my father was in the hospital. I knew instantly that something was wrong, and that sooner or later, he may leave us on this earth. Little did I know that my father had already succumbed to his death due to old age. I did not know how to react to the sad news, all I knew was that I had to be there for him. As I reached the hospital, I became more nervous and made me more eager to reach my father’s room. Upon entering the colored door, I felt the cloud of sadness come over me.
On the bed, lay, my lifeless father, that everyone inside the room was crying. However, I came to his death bed, still in denial for the said fate. At the back of my mind, I wanted to revive him, and bring back the life he had. I stood in front of my father, looking at him as if he were sound asleep. My mother immediately stood beside me and said, Your father left us already. He went to heaven to live a more peaceful life “Upon hearing this, my tears started to roll down…”
My Past Experience
Learning something new can be a scary experience. One of the hardest things I`ve ever had to do was learn how to swim. I was always afraid of water, but I decided that swimming was an important skill that I should learn. I was thought it would be a good exercise and help me a more confident person. The new situation always make me a bit nervous, and my first swimming lesson was no exception. After I changed into my swim dress in the comfort room, I stood near the pool waiting for the other teacher and students to show up. Then, I looked at the pool, I felt great fear of water, Because the water looks evil. I asked myself “If I jump in that pool, you can remember everything to your youngest sister that she was scared of water. However, things began to feel and I was able to swim. It was a wonderful feeling like flying. Learning to swim was not easy for me but in the end.
My persistence paid off. Not only did I learn how to swim and conquer my fear of the water, but I also learned something about learning. Now, when I am faced with a new situation I am no longer nervous. I am no longer nervous. I may feel uncomfortable, to begin with, but I know that as I practice being in that situation and as my skills get better I will feel more and more comfortable. It is a wonderful, free feeling when you achieve a goal you have set for yourself.
