As sat there, I was slowly turning my mind off and trying to not look at anything or anyone. I didn’t want to make it look like I was waiting for someone because I was very curious if this task could be accomplished. It took me probably a good hour to finally get where I needed to be mentally. I was kind of amazed though that when I finally had a clear mind, all feelings of emotions went away; positive and negative. I just tuned out the background music and was in a relaxing state of mind. It took quite a while and tutee a few tries to get this way. Again, this was extremely hard to accomplish.
At first, I kept getting distracted by kids yelling and running around and people talking loudly to each other or on their cell phones. Plus I was a little skeptical about doing nothing in a place full of people because I was afraid of the reaction from them. As I sat there, I was slowly turning my mind off and trying to just not look at anything or anyone. I didn’t want to make it look like I was waiting for someone because I was very curious if this task could be accomplished. It took me probably a good hour to finally get where I needed to be mentally.
I think this feeling of emptiness was there because there is always something going on in my head and it is very rare that am not actually thinking about something. It also made me feel relaxed and less confused. The mall is so full of busyness with people shopping and hanging it out and not really thinking about anything but getting that perfect gift or getting to that perfect sale. There is so mulch more in the world to think about that us as a society doesn’t really think about the important things in life when we are focused on the small stuff.
As I was sitting there blankly staring into the shopping world around me, noticed that no one really paid attention to me. No one said anything to me and no one really looked at me. It was weird to feel ignored when usually in a social setting like this, I am usually talking to someone. It was almost like I was an invisible lost puppy in a big world of people who could care less about anyone or anything but themselves. On the other hand, it felt kind of relieving to not have to think about stuff going on in my life.
With all of the negative activity going on in this world and everyone being horrible to each other for various reasons, I personally think that everyone should try doing nothing and maybe everyone in our society would start being nicer to each other and caring more about others. I enjoyed the experience and now I know what it feels like to just forget everything and everybody around me and just focus on me and my open mind. This was a very eye opening and positive experience for me and I may have to do it every so often to clear my head and live in more positive light.
