When I was eleven years old I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. I had a hard time coping with the changes in my mood. Part of my healing process consisted of trying many different medications, therapies, and developing the desire to heal. During this time, friends I had for many years pushed me away, and although I felt alone and confused at times, I came out thriving. Bipolar Disorder is a mood disorder thought to be caused by chemical imbalances in the brain that can result in extreme swings in mood?from manic highs to depressive lows.
To be diagnosed with bipolar disorder, oh must have experienced a high period (mania). Bipolar mania is described as an “extreme high,” or feeling unusually great. Most people with bipolar disorder when ill or when symptomatic experience more lows than highs. Unfortunately, the lows I experienced were so extreme that the friends I thought would be by my side through anything chose to follow other kids and use my disorder to bully me creating deeper depression. Initially, I felt stigmatize by my diagnosis. Most people I encountered either didn’t know what bipolar was or how to interact with someone suffering with he disorder.
Teachers, peers, and family members had a hard time knowing what to say or how to act around me. I started to feel like I was no longer my own person but just one big disaster and my mood swings became even more extreme as a result. Eventually, I grew tired of feeling sorry for myself and began my quest for the right medication, vitamins, nutrition, psychological and spiritual health and wellbeing. I found my inner strength and courage. I put my energy into school, new friendships and family and started viewing the diagnosis as a blessing that had given me the opportunity to develop into the person I am today.
Even though this was a hard teem for me, I stayed strong and kept a positive outlook on life. I refused to let anyone or anything hold me back from achieving my dreams. My parent’s, family, teachers and new friends gave me all the support and love I needed. Throughout this experience I have showed my resilience, courage, compassion, and ability to keep my spirits up. I am proud of myself for keeping an exceptional attitude during this time and accomplishing so much despite the difficulties I encountered.