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How do you love when your heart’s filled with fear? How do you forgive when it’s so hard to forget? The story of African-American Antwone Quenton Fisher “Fish”(played by Derek Luke) leads people to ask these kinds of questions. An important person in his life being his psychiatrist Dr. Jerome Davenport (played by Denzel Washington) from the navy helped Antwone with his issues and anger by being there for him to talk to and release all of his stress and pain that he has held inside throughout his life.

Through the abuse, abandonment, and struggle still Antwone becomes a strong successful man. Despite minor changes, the movie Antwone Fisher is a realistic portrayal of the young mans life; the director changes details about Fisher’s life because the movie stresses Fisher’s relationship with his psychiatrist and is explained through flashbacks of his life, while the book is based on Antwone Fisher’s entire life and has many more characters and important people that were in his life. Antwone Fisher was born in prison in Cleveland, Ohio to Eva Mae Fisher, which was only seventeen years old.

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Antwone never got a chance to meet his father who was shot and killed by a former girlfriend two months before he was born. Within a few weeks after Antwone’s birth, he was assigned to an African American foster mother by the name of Mrs. Tate (played by Novella Nelson) who mentally, physically, and sexually abused him for fourteen years until he had enough and got into a fight with Mrs. Tate and left. Mrs. Tate also had two other foster children, Dwight and Keith who Antwone became close friends with. At the age of 17, Fisher was expelled from his foster home. Fisher was then placed in a reform school in Pennsylvania.

Since he would turn eighteen before the end of his senior year he passed all of his required courses and got to graduate a year early. After graduating Fisher’s plans were to save up enough money to go to art school but he ended up working for a drug dealer and a pimp. Fisher didn’t like what was going on, he never wanted to be in that type of situation but he needed the money. Soon after he found out that the pimp had children involved, Fisher ran away and had no where to stay, asking anyone for spare change. Fisher was ready for a change in his life at this point; he joined the navy for eleven years.

In the movie, Fisher gets into a fight with a sailor on a ship in Pearl Harbor who says something about the color of his face, which leads to him being restricted to the base and required to take three sessions with a naval psychiatrist. Antwone Fisher begins his story and the beginning of a new start but he does not even realize it yet. Antwone does not want to communicate with Dr. Davenport because he feels as if he is not “crazy” and has no problems at all. “You may be able to make me come here but you can’t make me talk” (Wolz, Birgit. “Antwone Fisher. ”) Dr.

Davenport explains to Antwone that his sessions do not begin until he begins to talk. Towards the fifth session, Antwone begins to talk by saying, “what do you want me to say? ” from there on, he begins his session. Dr. Davenport starts by asking him where he is from and who his parents are. This is where he begins to tell his life story. Antwone eventually breaks down and tells Dr. Davenport about his horrific childhood with neglect and abuse. “In the beginning when I talked about my life, I couldn’t sit in the chair facing him. I sat on the floor in front of his desk. He couldn’t see me. .. Eventually I could talk to him face to face. He was the first person I ever told my story to. “(“Gale Contemporary Black Biography: Antwone Quenton Fisher. “) Antwone was mentally abused by always having to be called “nigger”. In the movie when Antwone is having a session with his psychiatrist he makes the statement, “She hardly used our names, she said the word nigger so often…called us niggers so often that we could tell who she was talking to by the way she said the word nigger”.

Antwone’s physical abuse had a lot to do with why he was angry and always resulted with violence. Mrs. Tate would threaten Antwone with fire while having him tied up to a pole in the basement. “Fisher reports his earliest memories are of being sexually abused, beaten, tied up and left in a basement for hours, sometimes days. I thought that there were no good people in the world — especially adults. ” (Doty, Meriah. “The Real Antwone Fisher. ” CNN. N. p . ,) Mrs. Tate’s babysitter for the children sexually abused Antwone. “It wasn’t really the fear of her punishing me that kept me from telling anyone all those years, It was the unspeakable shame I felt about what went on with her … and my unspeakable shame that maybe it was my fault. “Asking God why–why I had to live with the Picketts, why I couldn’t know my parents, why it was taking so long for the good part to come. ” (“Gale Contemporary Black Biography: Antwone Quenton Fisher. “) With Fisher being abused throughout his life he had never really knew what it felt like to love someone or have a real relationship and actually express his feelings, he was clueless as to what to do when it came to talking to a female on a personal level. Fisher met a girl while he was in the navy, Cheryl (played by Joy Bryant), and as he began to get to know her they both became close with each other and fell in love.

Fisher felt comfortable with her after he was sure that he could trust her and talk to her about what he has been through. While Fisher was telling Dr. Davenport about growing up in the foster home and had a best friend named Jessie, Dr. Davenport had asked what happened to Jessie and he had said that they lost contact. Soon after his session Fisher had got into another fight and had to report to his office. Fisher then explains to Dr. Davenport what really happened to Jessie.

When Fisher was living on the streets he had went to Jessie’s house one day after not seeing him for a long period of time. Jessie invites him in and fixes him something to eat then shortly after they take a walk to the store. When they arrive at the store Jessie pulls out a gun on the cashier and Fisher starts to ask him what he is doing, he is surprised and shocked by Jessie’s actions and doesn’t know what to do. As he is asking him what he is doing Jessie turns his head towards Fisher and the cashier pulls out a gun and shoots Jessie in his head.

With him seeing this he is traumatized by Jessie’s death, this haunts him his whole life until he stresses to Dr. Davenport how painful it was to experience something like that. Jessie was his only close friend. At this point in the movie Fisher feels comfortable with Dr. Davenport, he feels as if he is apart of his life and can go to him for advise and for anything else he desperately needs. Fisher never had a thanksgiving dinner with his family so Dr. Davenport’s wife invites him over to have dinner with them and their family.

As there at the dinner table one of Dr. Davenport’s family members say something that made Antwone feel uncomfortable, he then said excuse me and removed himself from the dinner table. Dr. Davenport then met with him in a different room of the house and Antwone shared a poem with him that he had wrote and felt strongly about. The poem read “Who will cry for the little boy, lost and all alone? Who will cry for the little boy, abandoned without his own? Who will cry for the little boy? He cried himself to sleep. Who will cry for the little boy?

He never had for keeps. Who will cry for the little boy? He walked the burning sand. Who will cry for the little boy? The boy inside the man. Who will cry for the little boy? Who knows well hurt and pain. Who will cry for the little boy? He died and died again. Who will cry for the little boy? A good boy he tried to be. Who will cry for the little boy, who cries inside of me? ” Dr. Davenport then asks “Who will cry for the little boy Antwone? ” Fisher responds “I will, I always do. ”(“Memorable Quotes for Antwone Fisher. ) Antwone really expresses his emotions in this scene and shows that he has had a lot of progression in his life and anger issues. With having the sessions with Dr. Davenport that was required, he tries to persuade Fisher to go search for his birth-mother so that he can release all of his anger by telling her how he feels and showing her that he made it. Fisher soon decides to fly back to Cleveland and find his mother and his real family; Cheryl also goes along with him to support him and be there for him.

When Fisher gets to Cleveland he goes to the foster home he grew up in and got the full name of his father, which was Elkin, so he could try to find his family. The two then began to call every Elkin in Cleveland area phonebooks until they locate Fisher’s aunt. His aunt invites him over, and a family member drives him to meet his birthmother. Antwone then gets his chance to tell his mother how he’s felt his whole life. He tells her how he didn’t need her to be there for him to be successful. “It don’t matter what you tried to do, you couldn’t destroy me!

I’m still standing! I’m still strong! And I always will be. ”(“Memorable Quotes for Antwone Fisher. “) His mother was speechless as he told her how he felt; she soon started to cry after Antwone walked out. After Fisher leaves from talking to his birthmother he returns to visit his aunt. When Fisher arrives at his aunt’s home his whole family is there and invites him in with open arms. Fisher then walks in and sits at the dinner table and is surrounded by many of his long-lost relatives and his girlfriend Cheryl.

Fisher is at this point, living the dream that he has always wanted. In the beginning of the movie he pictured everything being the exact way it turned out. After meeting his family and accomplishing everything he wanted to, he and Cheryl then returned back to Honolulu and he thanks Dr. Davenport for everything that he has done to help him. The real Antwone Fisher is now married to LaNette Canister since December 1, 1996; they have two children together by the names of Indigo and Azure. Antwone has become a very successful man. He is a writer, filmmaker and a poet.

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